half my life max and although i dont do this for a living it has run my life for far too long. ive made money every year except this year and 2005. im so sick to my stomach right now i cannot describe it. i make great money in my everyday gig, work with great people and these fucks in helmets who can give a rats ass about me, fezzik, u, lva sports or anyone else who invests in them continue to plow my asshole with a telephone pole. i said this weeks ago but ill be investing 20 bucks a week now in parlay and teaser cards. maybe this little explosion will help me cope better. in 2005 my home was ravaged by smashed windows, busted remotes, holes in doors and walls, etc etc. I am happy that I have outgrown that childish behavior but as a competitor, not a gambler, its time to move on or change my role in this industry by going tourist and playing 10 games for 5 bucks on a jokers wild parlay card. I despise losing more than anyone on this board and I want to compete week after week to get whats lost back but by body and mind cannot take this shit anymore. I cant imagine what those of you who are married deal with but this weekend my girlfriend told me I officially need to check in and get help b/c like any drug addict gambling had officially taken over. I think Ill take her advice and become what I despise or used to despise...someone who watches and roots like a fan not someone with a vested and competitive interest. Sadly I am a midwest transplant and Ohio State graduate so I will be rooting for the Buckeyes week after week to win and believe it or not im a life long saints fan. My fav team put a bullet in and pulled the trigger tonight. Ill be roaming around the site b/c i think there are some great minds and cool people who I admire very much on this board. Maybe a vacation is just what the doctor ordered for me. It certainly cant hurt.